Am I too much of a pessimist? Keila says so. She says we need to work on my self-esteem more intensely so I won't hurt myself like before, that's why she's asking me to go twice a week now. It's ok, dad says it's ok, that I can go if I think it'll help and he'll pay. That's really quite kind of him, considering he didn't want me to see a private therapist in the first place, accepting a doubled bill... Little things to show that he cares. I'm glad I see them.