July 2nd, 2004

Artsy me - by Micha

Aching to move on

"Once again I've done my job of pushing you away
It's the rise and fall of the beginning and the end of another day
The traps I set, the risk I bet the one that got away I sit
Down to wonder why
The weight of the world
Is all I ever have to give
So write me off
As just another mistake
That you once made"

Strung Out - Your Worst Mistake
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    Your worst mistake by Strung out
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Artsy me - by Micha

Shopping therapy

- medicine grandma asked me to
- 6 pairs of white socks
- 1 lipstick: deep purple, almost black
- 1 huge plush hand (black)

Didn't stop thinking about him for one second.
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    Thanks that was fun by Barenaked Ladies
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Artsy me - by Micha

And confused to boot...

How does a relationship progress from old acquaintances, who haven't talked in years, to this in less than 9 months?

I've experienced a kind of pain I didn't even know existed. I've been in constant pain since last night. Haven't stopped thinking about him for one second. Even while I slept, after crying myself into unconsciousness, I had nightmares about it. Nothing distracts me from the loss of my best friend.

Biok5 talked about a certain bond that should only be created between life mates. I've been trying hard to push that off my mind.

I don't think I should go out with Leo, since it's so obvious I don't like him all that much anymore.
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    By myself by Linkin Park
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Artsy me - by Micha

Note to self:

Must keep busy at all costs.

Saturday: field service in the morning, then chat with Alex about this, since she's gone through something similar, then Leo's coming over to use the computer, then there's meeting, then off to bed as early as possible.
Sunday: field service in the morning, then second part of the baptism questions. Hm. Gotta find more stuff to do on Sunday.